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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

thirteen march 06, night.
why the fuck did you have to go?
why did you leave us all behind and cry?
why didnt you bring the tears away?
why couldnt you bring me along too?
why couldnt i forget all the times we had?
why? why? why did you choose this way out?
why arent you here with us?
why are you not playing our sport?
im angry. i duwan you to go.
please come back.

i dont understand why im cryin'
isit because there is no more you?
isit because im too touched by all that was said and written by them?
isit because you refuse to put your pride down and console me even when we haben been talking for the entire day?
only you know why.

why am i left alone in this room when all of them could sleep so soundly?
why isit that im full of questions, uncertainties and loneliness?
why are promises meant to be broken?
you said i wont be alone.
you said you wont leave me crying out there.
look at what you have done to me.
look at my tears. they wouldnt listen to me. they cant stop flowing.
and yet you wouldnt care less.
you wouldnt give a damn about me.

im hurt. im upset.
is this what i deserve?
am i asking for too much?
you lied to me again.
you made empty promises. jus to make me happy that time.
yahhhh. now i understand.
or maybe i dont.
maybe someone else can replace me.
someone else can do a better job.
maybe you are pushing me away.
maybe i don mean anything, anymore.
maybe never was i anyone.

i cant sleep.
or maybe i shud sae im not ready to sleep.
im afraid to sleep, afraid to face tommorrow.
am i gonna get up and pretend nothing has happened?
tell me wad to do!
tell me wad you want me to do!
have you ever spare a thought for me?
ever keep me into consideration?

why is everyone liddat?
why is everyone treating me this way?
am i so worthless?
why can i share my joy and happiness with you?
and why can i only listen to your woes?
and why can i only treat you like a stranger?

to you, im a close friend. but to me, are you mine?
to me, you are a close friend. but to you, am i yours?
how ironic.

why cant this world be a better place to live in?
then maybe you wont go.
why do i have to cry?
why do you have to cry?
why do people cry?
why cant we feel nothing?
nothing.
i wanna know how it is like to live in a world without feelings.
i wanna try to feel nothing.
absolute nothing.

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